Health Notes

Blood Sugar was 117 last two days.

What i did - The Starch Solution

Had a very mild headache from blood sugar being high

I ate a sweet potato half with my tea in the morning made a big difference.

Also, doing some cardio workout helps a lot on blood sugar

Sadhguru - Why i love him so much?

well he is a really great example of who when achieves true enlightenment basically how to be the best self possible and be in total alignment with God.  I guess the biggest difference is that Sadhgur comes from a place of love en devotion and the other people well they come from a place of i must achieve ego and trying alghout it seems the tools and the mindset si somewhat similar.  so what i love and admire about him i the ways people resonpnd to him and line up for him but the impact he is able to have eon people just his presence is enough to jolt you into a who new attest of bing.  that is inspirational also the way he lives his live he is so committed to everything that he barely sleeps and just spend all of his time each waking moment furthering his cause of benign alignment with Shiva.  so his just keeps on keeping on each day every day .  I love Shiva and am try lefvomed but who come i don't just keep at it and how come my mind is alway saving an dhow come i it has to do with his love for himself and know fully about his greatness s.  he has masted the art of being amazing ain a way where he can serve many many pop.e  all the other stuff seems secondary.

So i have come a long way in self mastery and the things that ti see now in myself fan the other stuff is just phenomenal i am like an open book total yreceptime and total open.  in fact after bap i decided that i would shower and do Guru puja each day and i have each and every day i do guru puja.  tis been phenomenal.  actually so what is next well the thing is that i want to sit not
don't ask this question

So what do i love about A - Well he has aloe word on himself now to a phone where his just kept doing and keep doing until all the pieces fell into place.  So that i the thing Just keep going and keep odin but is oddly woke to have a vision.  he is clear that his si teaching yoga to the yoga teachers and has a nice place setup for himself and people are drawn to him even with all of his nuances.  test just ays his away of bing is great but the content i all over the place and people continue to come and he has now learn d to master himself more and more and just dialed into himself.

Oprah - what do i love about O well a lot of things she was able to take hear personality y and make ti into something that helps people the common people by sharing wisdom from the rich and famous the people she has been having on her show and she si able to just work with them and share and create a brand for herself.  she was not a teacher by herself but win leveraging all these people she has come into her own greatness and is now able to he has build her business on her own content and she has rthi scantness and people are down to it and they love it.  she had inspired so many people to think different and not get trapped in the norms of life not to accept life the aye it is but as she has done to focus on doing what truly makes her happy and i have alway been a big believer in that an deploy like oral have been so inspirations because i would watch that ana dknwo that i tis possible .  ti is just amazing that she took the show and as with her appearance and eno matter what people say aobu there look or whatever someone she was able to get people to watch and she was able to get people inspired in a genuine way so that hey are watch the show.  i guess the thing is wow - people come
Why do i watch the oprah show.  well she made me step out of the norm and see that other things in life are possible besides the life we have played oout of us and what we see in our immediate reality.
  The spirtuality is my own connection and love for God  i would like to inspire people from all walks of life to connect with there inner being.  And so many of the self-help people i see are good but without God there is no sweetness.  that is the secret sauce.  Connecting with the heart to create fullness wholeness otherwise we are just using one side of our brain and leaving all the other goodness behind.  its like having cake and just eating the ising but never getting to all the layers.

The thing is that i my vision is to create a space where ei can bing epol for events of yoga journey and to go deeper within themselves once pope see my greatness i want them to sing up for my classes and other things but the reason the money doesn't seem apparent is because what do people do, another great press story.  my wish is that i get discovered and someone from somewhere approached me and says hello Aparna we would like to give you a talk show on spirituality.  you cn talk about mindfulness and bring epos together.  create community.  

Trip to Dc

So here I am again, another trip to DC and the same feeling when i'm here i want to go to SF, when I'm in SF i want to go to DC now comes this urge to go to India and then Ashram to Rishikesh.

So now what here i am and as i was agrarian with my Mom today i realizes at the i am very much like her but in different situations,
she has gone to all these DR but can not seem to stick with making some radical changes to herself
now here i am the same way with work
i committed to many new things but did i really commit to making some changes if so what have i changed the thing is the life that i want to lead is a creative expression of myself.
I was so angry when my Mom decided to changes our plans, i was thinking she said
i said stop thinking and go with the flow

so here i am with the very same problem -- stop thinking and just stick with it

Decision Time

So this is grandmother Aparna

i see this girl who hs moved many times from sf to dc to sf to dc to sf to dc
four times to be exact and when i had said that i would moe last time i figured i would figure it out.  but maybe the decision does not need to be so hard an fast option e
work and make the money i need to make and then live a lie accordingly anytime you teach yoga it to the consumers it requites building an individual brand and that is really hard so whether you are her or there the problem is the same as far as pspaekignin sonsoerned i have to say well
this morning as i teach mediation and say all the suf. happening not people s ewe practice ci could see how claret all of us damage our bodies with just our thoughts teaching yoga in an environment where there are many people recovering form all kinds of additicont i could not help but think of what my Guru says depression and abuse are when our thought and trigger get the best o fuss it takes a lot of work to master th self and and the way we allow ourself to create out body and its never too late.  feeling grateful for the gif of yoga meditation.  moving with our body reveal so much.

so as i look at he bridge and then i look at eh white house well what is it so where is the bigger and fastest way to fame and the answer is thru your voice not the location being a place where i can build my domain is the most import things 

Career Journey

As i look back on my career there are only a few big things I have enjoyed so far...

1)Netsap - I loved everything about it, building community, bringing people tougher to have fun, meeting and working with awesome people and hosting some amazing events

So if I stop pranaEdge as Netsap wow i will be set...brinignign people tougher having events teaching yoga an mediation and this time would like to create an online magazine what is an online magazine well not sure right?

ON-LINE Magazine

Attract people to my Mindful Meditation Events
Express myself
Build community events

Love Love Love..Expectation

So right this moment what is the my ideal husband.

What you want and what you believe are in the same place...Expectation

well here it is i my life partner is wonderful beyond my imagination he is everything i have ever wanted an d more and more ,

he love me completely and beautiful and i feel very luck to be with a man who live me as much as he love m.  see what it is esthete when we meet it feels like he was the none

the right reopens for me feel like he feel comfortable and secure with him and also loved and just blessed.  i feel like we are tougher when we re tougher there i is a level of ease and comfort just like i feel with my family he loves me and wants me to loves me and i love him and 

he is tall, attractive, fun, dynamic loves to do things, he is ambitious, energetic, strong, passionate and lives life to the fullest, very adventurous, giving, caring, loving, spiritually connected and aware, loves life and lives it to the fullest, cherishes connection with people, ambitious, hardworking and loves to make money.

Talk about it, feel it, go with it...

Love, love, love...
Everything that we want is a feeling that we will be better off in the having of it.

So a place of deep love there a a lot of thought but the reality is that
when you connect with someone special these is a feeling of ease and just smiling and bliss that is like no tother not only does it bairn a simple to your face but it brings a mile to everyone you connect tight doesn't it?  its that love conceit that mess everyone happyso whey you xperine the love connection its with ease and easy you just go with it tan di love leo i just live dom the dreamy love where when two people re tougher they know they are into each other its just that feeing smily at each other in a different way.  is beauties fy and its that feeling of looking at each other in a eight way an dlarugh tat yeah others joeces jokes for ne reason and no one else int he room finds it funny just the tow of you and know that there is someone in this would who understands you feeling natkesd with you close on there is someone else int eh you life who total understand you and love you just the way your are
and feeling that sense of attractant hat when you are bout int he room tougher you can both feel each tother presence without saying a word and when you go out tougher its that feeling of being b]proud to be with this someone so wonderful and special to be by my iced in a easy an drealizexed manor
and then when you go home at the end of the evening know that you have this wonderful man to go home with and actually looking forward dot our evening ogherer just the tow of us and really cherishing our time together just the tow of us and even if just sitting in silence sharing hat silicon with presence and love that is beyond work s
so it just feels whole and complete and natural and realized and at the end of this night feeing grateful as you go to bed and hold each other kwnonig hat tits a gift to hold each other this way
its truly a gift to love deeply and have it returned and have him feel the same way
and know feeing like yeah od fuss are each other esponsiblyt to take care of and share decision nd thing that come us true partnership and knowing eh eh the rjsut he way we are and accepting each other know that at one of us and the other are just the way we are.. that is the feeing of deep love and he as to know that when we are at home we can even eat at home and word our works an having each of us tougher at home
fe
feelign excited to spend the weekend tougher and also feeing excited to have such a full career all at he same time feeing blessed.

Career Coach..House in suburbs

So here I am doing my exercises....

So my Mother mentioned that if there is a guy and i can see my whole life flashing beefier my eyes.  i see a life of living in my suburbs and never making it this whole thing bout making it is a big fear or me what si making it mean to me actually who has made it Oprah, i know and i know that i have some big aspirations and for that ti will do anything so when i see that i can't seem
on the one hand i want a house and want to be stable in one place wont h the other hand i feel that being in one home with a husband will just make me too comfortable and then i will never make it.  the only thing we re reading is time right so i remember this any guy who want to settle down i am so afraid of so i guess my life dream is to live alone in a box since portent or even to buy a house and liv alone so that i can be favor one day.  if that is what i want then so be it right?  don't worry be comfortable.

I don't have to ask the question too much --  Why is it that i am alone most weekend because i feel that i am trying to figure it out and then when i arrive i will get married but my question is that since i'm about to be 50 at what age do i think i will arrive and when i get there will i still want something else or will this arrival be final.  This sounds so silly i have to say coming from a spiritual person like me.  I have gotten so good at just being trapped in this way of thinking that i don't even know what to say.

I actually didn't realize - so why does this person who wants to be famous feel about other things about family about leo well this persons wants to expend elves or save herself for a man who i famous so we can be famous together otherwise eh is not interested what is she had a man who support her instead of competed with her well it sound boring.  this is the same girl when her first retreat at spirit rock when he teacher mentioned well you will feel grounded when you actually meditation and its good to be grounded was just not having any of that why do i want to feel grounded.  i have a lot to do in this life.  Lots of resistance...

You must Believe and Devote --