Sunday, March 30, 2014

Let your FEELINGS guide you to your Mate...

Something I heard and want to live by...

When you are truly lighthearted about he people you spend time with, you attract other like minded people you spend time with, you attract other like minded people.

LIVE LIFE WITH JOY and LAUGH FOR NO REASON....I must do this....

But if you are seriously scrutinizing all of the guy you see if they are our dream mate-- the ONE, you attract other scrutinizers and you will continue to disappoint each other!

When you bring yourself to a good feeling attitude about meeting people and you are looking forward to going on a date for the sake of the fun or the pleasure you will have today rather than trying to parlay it into a lifetime relationship.  You will be much more likely to remain a vibrational match to what you really want in a relationship and then the universe will more quickly bring you a perfect mate.


I have been thru this phase -- When you feel tense and worried about...
  • finding someone or 
  • if you worry about a person not wanting you or 
  • you not feeling the same way 

You are pointed in the opposite direction of what you are looking for and you are a match to the very thing you do not want and so the very thing you do not want continues to show up in your experience....wholla!

That is it in a nutshell -- The essence of life I would say even in a job situation when

So I NOW meet and spend time with some wonderful people that i really connect with and love to spend time with and build out long term partnership and friendships and its my deepest wish that i now find my true life partner and we share our life together always.


Saturday, March 29, 2014

Book Proposal

So I was asked by the Brooking Institute to do a Book Proposal

The Startup Within - A Global movement for World Peace

Everyone is an Entrepreneur!

I am writing this book because as I've worked for the State Department and had a chance to help build out entreprenship ecosystems all over the World.  I realize now more that ever that the US has a very entrepreneurial culture.  But the thing to stay focused on is the fact that entrepreneus succeed not because they are able to raise the most money for their ideas but becuase they believe in their dreams

Convince people of there dreams to succeed
No fear of failure
Being who we are from the inside and out
Building your dreams like a startup, the most important aspect is loving what you do!  So many people go to work in the typical 9-5 jobs and cant wait to leave to go home.  Well life doesnt begin at 5pm after work!  Work, play, living its all life there is not this seperation that you will have fun after you leave work.
Explore your real goals, hidden talents, passions, assets and core skills.  We are all living in a busy world and as I walk the streets around the world I see so many busy people trying to get somewhere.  Well if everyone is trying to get somewhere, where are they going?  When will the searching end.  I come across a lot of people who say well I'm realy unhappy with my work, I should start my own business I will have more flexiblity, really?  Yes that is true but you will also have a lot less time.  

Everyone is an Entrepreuer, how we live our life


Body and eating healthy

I APARNA HAVE NOW COMPLETELY AND TOTALLY HEALED MY BODY!  I LIVE MY LIFE WITH GREAT ENERGY AND VITALITY AND LOOK FORWARD TO EACH AND EVERY DAY OF MY LIFE.....AND CHERISH THIS WONDERFUL GIFT THAT GOD HAS GIVEN ME!

This is an obsession for me and continue to be that way.  But its an obsession where I want to get ahead of the curve on it and set and wonderful example of how I live in a healthy body.  I am a bit disappointed that my endmetriosis after all of this still feels like it keeps coming back.  I do some juicing and eat fairly decent but my body just doesnt like some of it, like the pizza i had last night and sometimes the coffee i have. or the binge i went on with my corn nuts the salt really set things off....

When i hear all these people who are here to inspire us, my latest favorite is the Liferegenerator -- I have to wonder can i really do IT!!  He talks about the emotions involved in eating and using food as a drug.  It obvious in my life I am always wanting to use food to have something to look forward without that what would i have... really!  Well since i live on my own after working out i look forward to going to a cafe!  but now days i dont know what to get its not like you can buy a green drink or even if you can its like $10 and thats just way to much for me on my budget...i guess even if i'm in a relationship we would still want to come to a cafe.  What does a Yogi do?  Just get to work but yogi love to love life...

One day I might go cold turkey and just do it all the right way!  But for now i continue to play with a few good and a few bad things...

Friday, March 28, 2014

Simply see what is your place in the existence and constantly keep reminding yourself, “This is all I am, a speck of nothing in nothing.” Sadhguru

What your consciousness is intensely focused on is what will manifest in your life and in the world around you. Sadhguru

At this point i just have to say that bieng in existence as nothingness sounds heavly.  The other way is so exhausting and I'm been doing it for 45 years and what is the ifference.  Things happen as they will all this trying to control things just doesnt work.  



ISHA
All the spiritual sadhana is not to become knowledgeable, but just to become an empty page so that just anything can be projected. If you become an empty page and remain one, you can project life upon it. If you have been to the local theater, any number of movies have been played upon that screen, but it does not distort anything because light is a subtle thing. If they had used a crayon or a paint brush, those screens would have been discarded a long time ago.
So it is about moving your relationship with the existence from that which is physical, mental, and emotional – which will leave marks and never allow you to have an empty page – into an etheric state, where your relationship is far deeper and much more profound, but subtle in such a way that you can play any kind of cinema on it. The moment it is off, it is off; not a trace left. The previous movie, if it left even a little bit of trace upon the screen, the next movie would be a disaster. That is all that is happening right now. The previous movies have left impressions.

Healing thru foods


Beets for Liver cleanse
Parsley for Kidney and Adrenals
Lemon for Lymphatic system
Watercress for cleansing
Dandelion for Liver

Liquid minerals - Whole foods

So they say that losing weight is more about letting go than anything else -- so eating to find excitment in life is kind of an addition for me.

LOSING WEIGHT IS ABOUT LETTING GO...What can i let go off..

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Life and Life balance...

Life and Life not Work Life Balance

Working in the Government I see so many people anxious for the clock to hit 5pm so they can get home and enjoy life well 50 hours of your week are spend in compulsion of working without much enjoyment.   That is NOT how life should be....

So I gave a great talk today to a group of Japanese Girls who are in the US from Japan to study Entrepreneurship.  It felt so good because I came from such an authentic place, that even i surprised myself.
My beef...


  • We are living in One World - dont think we are living in a Man's world trying to make it, we are beautiful women and always will be and dont have to be like a man to be successful.
  • We all have dreams and failure, **celebrate your failures...(I will write about this)
  • Dont wait for the big answer do as much as you can and really vary your interest.  I spoke about how i have tried lots of things and still feel like I have not yet hit what I want completely but never stop trying
  • The successful Women is not out there nothing you want is out there it has to be a part of you for it to be--happen.
  • Wow was this really me! Who am I someone who love me just the way I am...?



Sunday, March 23, 2014

Oprah on Finding the fullest expression of Yourself

Seeking the fullest expression of self. That's the story of my life in six words—my personal definition of what I'm all about, at least for now. Writing this mini-memoir reminded me that my definition has always been and still is evolving. (If you haven't yet written your own—see Mini-Memoirs: Your Life Story in Six Words—I hope you'll give it a try. The exercise isn't just fun; it's revealing.) Words I would have used last year don't apply today. Because if we're really committed to growth, we never stop discovering new dimensions of self and self-expression.

For my Next Chapter show on OWN, I recently went to Fairfield, Iowa—population 9,500, smack in the middle of Midwestern farmland, the last place you'd expect to get stuck in an evening traffic jam because so many people are headed off to practice transcendental meditation. But that's what people do in Fairfield; in fact, it's often referred to as TM town. The action takes place in two golden dome-shaped buildings, one for the women, one for the men. Housewives, shop clerks, engineers, waitresses, lawyers, moms, single ladies, and me—we all gathered in our dome for the sole purpose of being still. Knowing that stillness is the space where all creative expression, peace, light, and love come to be.

It was a powerfully energizing yet calming experience. I didn't want it to end.

When it did, I walked away feeling fuller than when I'd come in. Full of hope, a sense of contentment, and deep joy. Knowing for sure that even in the daily craziness that bombards us from every direction, there is—still—the constancy of stillness.

Only from that space can you create your best work and your best life.

So now I give myself a healthy dose of quiet time at least once (and when I'm on point, twice) a day. Twenty minutes in the morning, 20 in the evening. TM teachers have taught everyone in my company who wanted to learn how to meditate. The results have been awesome. Better sleep. Improved relationships with spouses, children, coworkers. Some people who once suffered migraines don't anymore. Greater productivity and creativity all around.

It proves once again that Glinda the Good Witch was right: "You've always had the power." You just have to be still to find it. And when you do, you're on the way to finding the fullest expression of you

More Inspiration for Improving and Appreciating Your Life



Read more: http://www.oprah.com/health/Oprah-on-Stillness-and-Meditation-Oprah-Visits-Fairfield-Iowa#ixzz2wqOwn7nf

Live each day to have the Greatest Expression of Yourself

This is the Best Way I've seen anyone put it, The Greatest Expression of My True Self!

So when i look in the mirror is that what I see, I have recently been struggling with, why bother?  I have been so content with myself that I dont want to chase anytime down any more!  Not my body weight, not a Man and not even fun things to do.  So what ends up happening is the I just end up getting bored on the weekends and do the things that I like meditating working out and eating.

Well the question to ask myself is am I having the greatest expression of myself each day.  Today as I was having breakfast with a friend of mine he said you are very talented once you do something you will be very successful!  Well people have been saying this to me all of my life.  So clearly I'm not experiencing the greatest expression of myself.  When i heard that i wanted to cry since that is all i want is to do something that I really enjoy and that feel right and I know I will do it very well and it will consume me.

What is the greatest expression of myself -- Helping Millions of People life the best life possible, career advise, helping start there own business -- Sell Inner Well Being
What makes people Successful? the newances, their routine 

Sadhguru on Life Calling


Questioner: How can I find out what is my duty to society? I went to business school, I had a job offer from a multinational and I said, “No, this is not it, there is more to what I want to do and I came here to find out.”
Sadhguru: When I visited one of the top business schools, it was shocking for me that they are teaching people, “What you cannot count does not count.” No, only what you cannot count, counts. What you can count is of minimal importance in your life. What you can count is essentially what you can get. With what you can get, you can make a living. You cannot make a life out of it. Do you want to spend your life just making a living, or do you want to make a life out of it? This is the choice that every human being has.
Unfortunately today, most human beings spend their whole lifetime just making a living because their living is so unnatural and expensive. They buy a house, thirty years they are mortgaged to the house – not the house is mortgaged, you are mortgaged to the house. They buy a car, they are mortgaged ten years. Even their education loan is taking fifteen years to clear. Just today, there is some news in the paper; they are saying in the future, from now onwards, every third human being born on this planet may live up to 100 years. And he will generally finish his education by the time he is 32. He will clear his education loan by the time he is 50. He will get married when he is 45 and he will retire at 70 or 72. After that, for the next 30 years, of course, he has health insurance. So, he will go from doctor to doctor.
the only and only way you can experience life is to become more and more conscious.
If you want to make a life out of this, do not think in terms of what you can do for the society. If you do something really wonderful to yourself, then naturally you will want to share it with everybody, it is inevitable. If something really wonderful comes your way, don’t you want to share it? Only those things that you can count, you do not want to share. Those aspects of life which you understand that you cannot count, that means it will never deplete. Those things you can count and accumulate, always, the fear is it will go away. If you collect a million rupees and keep it, the fear is only one million is there, it will go away if you bring it out. If you had joy in you, ecstasy in you, knowing in you, enlightenment in you, you know it cannot go away, so there is no need to lock it and keep it. That is when you can really reach out and do whatever is needed to be done.
What you should do with the world is not what you like. What you should do with the world is what the world needs, isn’t it? What is needed should be done, not what you like. Always, this has been propagated, particularly in the western societies. “Doing what you like is freedom.” You must understand your like and dislike is a certain level of compulsion. If you cannot do what you like, you will suffer. If you have to do what you do not like, you will suffer. It is a serious compulsion – it is a trap. If you invest your life in what you like, you are getting into a deep trap. You will see what you do not like will torment you all the time.
Do not bother about what you like. First of all, don’t set it up like that. Just do what is needed. If you are doing what is needed, everything is fine all the time. There is no question of compulsiveness. Naturally, you become conscious. Iou are always looking at what is needed, you will become very conscious.f y And the only way, and the only and only way you can experience life is to become more and more conscious. If you become less and less conscious, you cannot experience life. Only if you become more and more conscious you can experience life. If you are really conscious, everything becomes fantastic. If you become really unconscious, you are dead.
So the choice is not between what kind of life; the choice is between life and death because consciousness is the only way life can happen. Unconscious means you are moving towards death in installments. And if you invest too much in what you can count, you will become more and more unconscious. There was a sage in Karnataka, his name was Allama Maha Prabhu, a wonderful sage, he wrote thousands of poems. In one poem he laments, he says if a man is drowning, you can still talk to him. If a man is bitten by a snake, you can still talk to him. But a man who is bitten by wealth and money, you cannot talk to because he has become so unconscious.
If you can have a few bucks around, it makes things a little simple and easy. Beyond that it has no consequence. It is what you cannot count which makes the difference. So invest your life in what you cannot count. Whatever you do, you will be a great contribution to the world.
Love & Grace,
Questioner: How can I find out what is my duty to society? I went to business school, I had a job offer from a multinational and I said, “No, this is not it, there is more to what I want to do and I came here to find out.”
Sadhguru: When I visited one of the top business schools, it was shocking for me that they are teaching people, “What you cannot count does not count.” No, only what you cannot count, counts. What you can count is of minimal importance in your life. What you can count is essentially what you can get. With what you can get, you can make a living. You cannot make a life out of it. Do you want to spend your life just making a living, or do you want to make a life out of it? This is the choice that every human being has.
Unfortunately today, most human beings spend their whole lifetime just making a living because their living is so unnatural and expensive. They buy a house, thirty years they are mortgaged to the house – not the house is mortgaged, you are mortgaged to the house. They buy a car, they are mortgaged ten years. Even their education loan is taking fifteen years to clear. Just today, there is some news in the paper; they are saying in the future, from now onwards, every third human being born on this planet may live up to 100 years. And he will generally finish his education by the time he is 32. He will clear his education loan by the time he is 50. He will get married when he is 45 and he will retire at 70 or 72. After that, for the next 30 years, of course, he has health insurance. So, he will go from doctor to doctor.
the only and only way you can experience life is to become more and more conscious.
If you want to make a life out of this, do not think in terms of what you can do for the society. If you do something really wonderful to yourself, then naturally you will want to share it with everybody, it is inevitable. If something really wonderful comes your way, don’t you want to share it? Only those things that you can count, you do not want to share. Those aspects of life which you understand that you cannot count, that means it will never deplete. Those things you can count and accumulate, always, the fear is it will go away. If you collect a million rupees and keep it, the fear is only one million is there, it will go away if you bring it out. If you had joy in you, ecstasy in you, knowing in you, enlightenment in you, you know it cannot go away, so there is no need to lock it and keep it. That is when you can really reach out and do whatever is needed to be done.
What you should do with the world is not what you like. What you should do with the world is what the world needs, isn’t it? What is needed should be done, not what you like. Always, this has been propagated, particularly in the western societies. “Doing what you like is freedom.” You must understand your like and dislike is a certain level of compulsion. If you cannot do what you like, you will suffer. If you have to do what you do not like, you will suffer. It is a serious compulsion – it is a trap. If you invest your life in what you like, you are getting into a deep trap. You will see what you do not like will torment you all the time.
Do not bother about what you like. First of all, don’t set it up like that. Just do what is needed. If you are doing what is needed, everything is fine all the time. There is no question of compulsiveness. Naturally, you become conscious. If you are always looking at what is needed, you will become very conscious. And the only way, and the only and only way you can experience life is to become more and more conscious. If you become less and less conscious, you cannot experience life. Only if you become more and more conscious you can experience life. If you are really conscious, everything becomes fantastic. If you become really unconscious, you are dead.
So the choice is not between what kind of life; the choice is between life and death because consciousness is the only way life can happen. Unconscious means you are moving towards death in installments. And if you invest too much in what you can count, you will become more and more unconscious. There was a sage in Karnataka, his name was Allama Maha Prabhu, a wonderful sage, he wrote thousands of poems. In one poem he laments, he says if a man is drowning, you can still talk to him. If a man is bitten by a snake, you can still talk to him. But a man who is bitten by wealth and money, you cannot talk to because he has become so unconscious.
If you can have a few bucks around, it makes things a little simple and easy. Beyond that it has no consequence. It is what you cannot count which makes the difference. So invest your life in what you cannot count. Whatever you do, you will be a great contribution to the world.
Love & Grace,

Friday, March 21, 2014

Lap of Mediocracy

I say this because I'm beginning to wonder is Mediocracy just like any other bad habit or do good things come to those who wait!

I have lived my life for so long 45 years and after last weeks health scare -- I am so happy to have the swelling on the right side of my body go down and I cam so happy that I dont have to have my mind racing what is wrong and hope that I can fix it  --- but its true I decide and then i just made up my mind and tried everything that I could and in a few days I have been feeling much better and not even too many day just 3 - 4 days of doing all the right things.  The beauty of it is that my body is starting to feel and look much better.

But I have to ask myself well is this ok, I look good and my body looks medium not fat but not skinny either just curvy or the average indian girl figure....dont get me wrong i'm very grateful for my body and its ability to heal itself is Amazing!  Thank you...

My ability to dance is at about 80 - 85 %
My ability to be persistent is 95%
My work ability is about 90% when i dial in but on a daily basis about 70%
My spirituality that I love is where? hum...about 85% is it 100%  do i do everything i do my kriya well but even that is about 85%
My love life well not existent so i would say - not applicable
My place is nice but ok, cleanliness 80%, organization 78%
My juicing ability and knowledge is at 150% -- I'm good!
My ability to Network and meet the Who's Who is 200% - phenomenal!
My Yoga is about at 70%
My Mantra singing is at 110%

So i guess what i'm getting at is anything in my life at 100%?? or even 95%

But i met Ted Leonisis yesterday and here is a man who was successful at a very young age but then wanted to find happiness great story but I wonder are some people just conditioned for success.  The best example of this is Bill Clinton, well he not only gave his presidency everything he has but what floors me is that when he went on a diet he just completely transformed his entire physic.

I guess as I think about this when i look on the other side, say i lose 10 lbs and have the perfect body i would feel the same.  Even if i get a great corporate job i can get in and a few weeks later feel not so good.  i can go the the biggest shopping spree and then what I have a few additional things.  I guess it doesnt really make be better on the inside or happier.  So if i live my dream life of helping millions of people or have a radio station or does it feel just ok.  Well when I got to the State dept it felt pretty miserable and lost...the dark side!  So how do i know that helping people will feel good.

I guess what i'm getting at is the some people condition themselves to achieve 100% and others just settle for mediocrity.  I hate mediocracy but with my weight i'm here now and with other things in my life maybe if i change the external mediocrity the external stuff will change as well.. 

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Meeting Ted Leonis - Bucket List March 2014

I was very impressed, move than usual.  But not by the amount of money he has or because he owns the Wizards but because he had a transformation story that I never heard off....

He was in a plan crash and then made a list of the 101 top things he wanted to do before he dies.

Just this morning I was thinking about the Steve Jobs stuff about waking up each day and asking yourself what would you want to do if this is your last day on earth.  The interesting thing is the other than chanting my Mantra not much else came to mind.  I would of course visit my family but I'm not sure of what else I would do...I would not go to work but what else would I do!!!

This made me think about my own bucket list...of things I want to do before I DIE..

  1. Fall in love and get Married to the Love of my life-- truly fall in love and mutually commit to each other in Marriage.  We deeply love and connect @ all levels and are very attracted and proud to be together always!  We are brought together by God and share our passion and love to inspire the World and live a life of Abundance.  We are brought together by God, We commit to a life in Marriage and love to wake up next to each other and are brought together for the mutual growth and evolution of our Souls.  
  2. My Financial Abundance flowering - I am now very excited to start my day and get paid very well to use my creativity and talents growing businesses.  I love to share connections and ideas and create value.  I regularly speak at large events from the heart and people love it!  I provide a very valuable contribution to the company where they make me an offer right away and value my contributions longterm.  I feel the money flows into my life naturally and with abundance and i've very generous in sharing with the World.  
  3. Professional Speaker - I am now paid very well to speak from the heart, from my gut and inspire the whole world!  I speak several times each month at large events.
  4. Teaching - I love to teach each and every day and share my God given gifts.  I Teach Yoga several times and week and help people transform themselves, its so magical.
  5. Have a one on one relationship with my Guru to live with the purpose for which God made me.
  6. Become my truly realized self and live a very naturally abundant and joyful life where I feel like I am living on Purpose, so when I wake up in the morning I am excited to know that i am doing what God send me here to do and I use myself fully.  I now live with the purpose for which God has but me on this Earth EACH and EVERY Day in an Abundant and Joyful way!  
  7. Have my own TV Show - I feel that one of my biggest strengths is to be able to talk to and engage with people of all walks of life.  I Now have a TV Show where I am the Host and interview successful people who have become very successful and really connected with their soul.  
  8. I am an invited Speaker at the World Economic Forum in Davos.
  9. Teach Yoga to Millions of People to help people Transform.  I would now like to teach yoga two to three times a week regularly.
  10. Buy a Waterview Condo in San Francisco/Bay Area
  11. Be on Oprah
  12. Be the Governor of California
  13. Be a Top Singer of Bhajans/Religious stuff
  14. Make my first $Million


Show people that Spirtuality and Inner awarness are the best path for success and money.  It is not just for outcasts but a very special gift to be shared with the whole world.  Becoming You!



Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Marriage..

#4 Warm It Up With Some Joy

If relationships have to be really beautiful, it is very important that a human being turns inward and looks at himself in a very deep way before he looks at someone else. If you become a source of joy by yourself and your relationships are about sharing your joy, you would have wonderful relationships with anyone. Is there anyone in the world who would have any problem with you if you are going there to share your joy with them? No. If you want to experience the profoundness of being with another human being, your marriage should never be about you – it should always be about the other person. If both of you think like this, your marriage will not be an arrangement, it will be a union.

#1 Take Two “Heartfuls” of Love

The English expression, “Falling in love,” is significant because you don’t rise in love, you don’t fly in love, you don’t walk in love, you don’t stand in love. You fall in love, because something of who you are has to go. It essentially means someone else has become far more important than yourself. Only if you don’t think too much of yourself, you can be in love. When what you consider as “me” falls, a deep experience of love can happen within you.

Ready to move on from Work!

I am now ready to THRIVE at my NEW Job that flows with Ease and Abundance.  This new job pays more money then I imagined, +$200,000 per year plus growth opportunites.  I work with+for people I love and people who love and Respect ME.  I get all the perks and work from home and travel to SF and other fun places all the time.  This new Job finds me while i'm in India and I start work here in May 2014.

I am so happy...
So to that end I have some very interesting meetings, I know that I'm ready now is just the part about how to make it happen or allow it to happen.  It should come with ease as planned...

Sunday, March 16, 2014

New Realization

I had some really good realizations today!  I was listening to Oprah's Super Soul Sunday.

Eckart Tole - Living in the moment and just taking a minute to center yourself and take a minute as you get in the car to breath and just enjoy - THIS Moment, and THIS Moment, wow just typing it is making me more and more relaxed.  All this thought that keeps running thru my mind is just not necessary

The ONLY way to hear God is in Silence, just BEING!

Tony Robbins - Our Story is the only thing keeping us from getting what we want.  Change your story and life will change.

Realized WOW - I love this stuff and love to talk about it all of the time and I'm quite a melting pot of Spiritual information and practices given my varied interest.  Its true that Sadhguru is enlightened and some of these other people are healers but I am also a healer and the fact that people come to me and say just gather all this information and synthesize it for me because i don't have time to go to an Ashram or Yoga studio.  If you look at people like Deepak Chopra although a DR does mostly these books and sells them.  Why not get in the ring and help people become better people.

Sometimes I look at all the masses of common people and see a lot of suffering, even working in the Government I see people who feel ok and thats ok but everyone and everyone wants to be better.  Its not just the mediocracy that I have a problem with its people suffering from thought and not knowing enough about what to eat or what type of yoga or even how to meditate!

BTW - It is true that its easier to meditate in the early morning 6-9 and late at night.  certain body conditions make it better.  

Saturday, March 15, 2014

Meeting with Mom's Holistic Healer


I went with my Mother to a Siddha medicine specialist - Pankaj Naram this afternoon, we spend the whole evening there but it was really perplexing for me.  I was so into my Mom getting the right treatment that I was just amazed by how many people come in sick with lots of little illnesses.  I hate to see human suffering and really wanted to just pull up a table and help them.  My big questions is How to help the masses?  I know so much about this stuff....but i guess the question is do i practice it.  Well i do and I am a firm believe in healing thru juicing which is not part of this but different vegetables and herbs.

I just realized that the same way my Mom is worried to sickness about her kids and what will happen to them especially with the lack of husband.  I am worried about her health and what will happen if she doesn't change her ways.  She is worried what will happen if she doesn't change her ways with her eating but mostly for her way of being so stressed out all of the time.  She needs to make a major mind shift and that is the solution so is that the solution for me as well.

Would love to help Millions and Millions of people, would it be nice to help all these people not with specific medicines but with just some simple lifestyle changes.  If 50% of these people just followed the food plan they would be cured without the medicine and if you add yoga to the mix the number go up astronomically.  

Be A Passionista!

DO WHAT YOU LOVE & MAKE A KILLING AT IT!

WORDs to live by and I have for so many years now its time to bring it all together.  I happen to pick up an article at the called be a PASSIONISTA!

So there are three steps for coming up with your dream job and a girl named Gabrielle Bernstein just made it happen for herself.   

Three Main Questions

1) Ask yourself would i do this for free? or What would i do for free?
This is an easy question to answer since I do work for free right now, I'm a political appointee/fellow/volunteer essentially thats it!  The question here is would i do it for pay, and the answer it hell NO.  doing it for free makes me feel like i have freedom to leave it i were to commit to doing this for the rest of my life or even a few more years I would be very depressed.  Every time I go into deep meditation.  

2) Maximize your after-hours



3) Dont quit your day job just yet

Well did this one three years ago and want to find my way back to a job i love!

Spirituality

So why am i so intrigued by this...

Well I have always know that I want to live on the spiritual path and once you start there is no looking back.  You just don't feel the same, just accepting who and where you are is somewhat hard because being on the path and totally connected feels awesome!  But how to keep up with that all of the time...

So I look at a lot of people who ask me we want to explore the spiritual path but they don't want to take the effort or time to go to India or to connect with a Guru or want to understand it.  This to me comes very naturally and love it, in fact if that is all I do in a day I would be great with that.  But I do like to have a business connection, I relate to business people better and well the Government types are a whole new category.

So when it come to starting a business all on my own it would have to do with bringing spirituality and meditation, chanting and body movement to the masses.  I want to stay away from the word yoga because although Yoga means a mind body connection.  In the US its associated with a lot of twists and knots with our body.  And the whole idea is to connect with our body and mind in a way that feels good to us.  So sometime it can be very intimidating to see people getting into knots and head stands with there bodies.

All I know right now for sure is that I want to help my self with my life transformation and help millions and millions of people all over the World connect to there mind and body in a way that feels good.



Possible workshop

CreativeZeness
ZenessinBusiness
CorporateZeness
StartupSpirit
TheStartupWithin
TheStartupMind
Heartleadership
Startup for WorldPeace

Self criticism

Its that little inner voice that lets us know that somehow we are not good enough.  Its there for all of us and yesterday I found myself for the first time noticing it!  I was judging a startup competition full of students and was surrounded by 7 successful men and for the first time I felt that somehow i may not be good enough.  But the thing that let me know that I was heading down a negative pattern is my body and my stomach felt very anxious and started turning.  Wow talk about being connected to your body!

I have been doing my mirror work once a day each day still i guess some things can really trigger stuff! As they say, love yourself like your life depends on it!  

Laugh at Yourself every day!

I just receieve this expercie from my Guru, each night just look back at your day and laugh at your experience.  I have found that most of these thoughts I have thoughtout the day.  The not enoughness, the too much ness all that stuff that we collet in our mind throughtout the day ....just laugh.  Now I see why someone invented laughter yoga! 
LAUGH..LAUGH...LAUGH at your self so you can be ready to smile with others!

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Shutting Down


So yesterday, was the hardest day I've had in terms of my body just shutting down so much so that even today although I feel good physically, I feel like just sleeping.  Well we will see where this leads to but for now I would have to say that its been ok, I am just trying to stay in the present moment and not wanting to chase stuff down.

I think that the last few weeks I have been so big on wanting this and that and stressing out about the job and wanting to manifest a great guy and wanting to transform my life that my body had just had enough!!!!!
So now i just want to be just as I am and as I am is in a good place knowing that i always have ways to make connections and put food on the table and knowing that I have a very strong will and desire!  I love and appreciate myself just as I am, just the way I am.  Constantly seeking perfection is good and life will always be about seeking otherwise we would be dead.  If we stop wanting/striving we would be dead pretty much so its good to want perfection but the beauty of life lies in appreciating what I have....

So when i talk to my Mother I get so frustrated that I want this and that but learn to appreciate what I have and being grateful is the practice.


Tuesday, March 11, 2014

Tips from Louise Hays herself...


I woke up feeling sick for the last two days and am wondering what's up, Things feel ok but I'm worried about my Endometriosis which may be here now but not sure.  I want to avoid going to the DR and look at what is at the root cause so I started to look up the women who has healed herself twice with no medicines....
1. Eat protein and vegetables. We sat and she ate breakfast. This is what she ate: peppermint tea, scrambled eggs, 3 sausages and some prunes. She ate the prunes with the sausage. Nice. As a rule, she follows the Westin A Price diet (as do I). Not strictly (ditto). So no sugar or gluten, limited grains, plenty of natural fats and a lot of veggies. Like me (via my Integrative Nutrition studies) she’s tried many different eating approaches and has settled on WAP principles.
2. You don’t need things. When she sat down I got rid of the clutter on the table. “We need less stuff,” she said, in a broad way. “Less clothes…I go shopping and I think, I don’t need this!” I instantly wanted to hug her. It’s been reported that while she’s a very wealthy woman, she lives minimally. She drives a Smart Car. And grows her own veggies.
3. Don’t worry whether you can do it…. Louise believes life brought her what she needed, as she needed it. “Life handed me AIDS,” she says referring to the fact she rose to fame from her work with AIDs victims in the 80s. “I’m just fascinated. How did this happen to me?” She’s learned to trust that life steers things. She’s a conduit. I find this wonderfully comforting. And intuitively right.
4. Learn about other people’s childhoods. You heal yourself when you forgive. And you forgive by imagining the “other” as a child and finding out what life was like for them as a kid. She researched her parents childhoods to forgive them for her violent childhood.
5. Answer the phone and open the mail. She says this a bit. And what she means is, don’t look for outcomes or success. Simply go about your day, doing your job and watch what happens next. Don’t fret. She also says the right things come slowly. Indeed!
6. The first hour of your day is crucial. She starts by thanking her bed for the sleep (!), stretches, has tea, then goes back to bed to read. Because she likes it. She even made a great bedhead so she can be at the best angle to read.
7. And some thyroid advice: “Look in the mirror and ask (your sick thyroid), ‘how can I love you back to life’?” As soon as she said this, I didn’t understand, but I certainly felt, it to make sense. Thyroid problems she said, after she sat quietly in thought for a bit, are all about creativity being blocked. She then explained that many women feel torn up by the pressure to be all things. And their creative self gets blocked.
I was truly touched by Louise’s care and humility. She’s a true healer, walks her talk, and her energy was clean and bright. On this journey I’ve been on chatting to different self-helpers, this is not as common as you might like to believe. Trust me.
Have you read Louise Hay’s stuff? Been touched by it?

Sunday, March 9, 2014

Having a Heart

Leading with the Heart, big believer but very difficult to practice.


  • I enjoy selling big branded, high value things to C-level Sr. Executives
  • Enjoy selling to Mid-size companies to I can communicate directly with C-suite and shorter sales cycle
  • I love to reach out to and interact with successful senior executives and providing them value
  • I also love to get paid very well for my ability to come up with a creative solution and pricing to suit the people/companies needs




Substituting Sugar for Self - Love


Endometriosis - Replacing self-love with SUGAR. Blamers.  -- Louise Hays

As they say, love yourself like your life depends on it!  I actually have to agree, since the last year has been a lot about blaming and now finding what i have been looking for work wise and love so its no wonder why my endometriosis has gotten worse.  Especially the last month it was painful and this month since i'm offered a new beginning I am starting a new Mirror Affirmation -

I LOVE and APPRECIATE MYSELF ALWAYS.  (5-7 minutes each night)



Friday, March 7, 2014

New Idea for Mentoring

Actually this is an idea for Coaching, there are so many people in this world who want need help ...what if there was an online platform to answer your questions and get started....

Well what if there was a Q&A site for Startups -- So if you want to start a company or get information from others and you are not in the US can you get your life questions answered...

Or if you are someone who need coaching but dont want to pay hundreds of dollars -- pick a area in your life and ask a question == Job Search, Career Choices or Love...

Tony Robbins Coaching Service online you get on the phone once a week and talk to a coach...What does the coach help you with life....

Work or Life Calling Choices


The biggest frustration for work is that I cant seem to commit to anything.  All these YEAR of longing for something that I'm going to like only to realize that nothing seems to fit.

I met with a guy today who was visiting from Boston and I was hoping we can talk about talk about the work stuff and run a few ideas by him..

So I really didnt want to talk about work.  The reality is that I have gotten so used to not working and just dabbling into things. Chasing experience to experience, from hearing about all the cool work things people are doing and being obsessed with entrepreneurship to talking to and hearing the word - VC.  I am just like the people who i work with they all put the word Entrepreneurship and Angel Investor in there resume and yet have no idea what that is.  Could it be that I'm a diplomat -- which is a fancy word for not much substance.

I have some awesome meeting lined up and I'm really looking forward to them but all this stuff for the last 3 - 4 years has lead to nothing.  Now where do i really want it to lead, well i want it to lead to Magic of course...Magic i am like Dorthy from the Wizard of Oz and she was trying to come home.  I'm not sure where home is, well home is where the heart is and my heart is safely tucked away.

So where is my Heart, well I met someone who touched my heart and then it went away.  But the touching of the heart is so special and tender that I want that feeling back again.  I dont want to be so far out there that I don't care.  So what MAGIC can touch my heart with work -- People.  Masses of People, being with them, helping and communicating with them.   What am i helping the masses with, well talking about life and things that can really stretch people.   So Dream Big is my big thing, allowing and enabling people to dream BIG!  No reason to dream small, being small is one thing but if you are dreaming dream big...so what does it mean to help people dream big why do i care, well life is designed to go a certain set way but if you remove yourself from the mix of the mundane then what happens everyone wants the big dream!  But only a few people have it and the people who do have it are not that they are special but they have really preserved to make it happen.  When I see the Oscar or really important people now days i'm no longer impressed or i take that back i'm very impressed by how they have pursued and really pursued there dreams and become successful.  Everyone can dream big but only a few are successful in making things happen.

So the big question in my life is am I one of those people who can take my myself from a lap of comfort to an actual real life of Abundance.  ABUNDANCE!  Well to be in abundance you have to really walk the walk in my case you have to learn to do everything with involvement.  Now sometime I can really feel like I can cross the chasm.  What does crossing the chasm look like...well whats over there...a life full of freedom and abundance in every way, love, money, people and the real me.

The real me who embodies giving and living her advise, who is a true Advisor and truly trusts her self to do things and does things like speaks in public well, engages with the Audience.  Sings Mantra's loves her husband and loves the good life...this crazy girl who never wants to stop dreaming.

So when this guy today asked me well what are your dreams I actually had no clear answer. Why?  I had so many dreams before and most of them have not happened, now I only want to have dreams that I can make real.  

What is the Inspired Life

I am starting this blog to focus on having an Inspired Life.....so given what I know about creative visualization and all that life has to offer why am I not already living this life!  That is the question I ask myself each and every day as I get older!

So I have always dreamed of the inspired life and for someone who is such a big dreamer I'm not sure when dream meets reality.

Thrilled to start a new year!

So after ending a hard year, very very excited to start a new year!
So here I am really excited and thrilled to start a new future!

Well my year of toughness with the State Department fellowship is coming to an end and although it started out really hard it has become a lot easier and I have grown to appreciate this experience, I still have to work my way to gratitude but its been a long year of learnign to have no expectations and just let it flow...

So I am very surprised to have made it this far, the best thing i worked on her is the Presidential summit and it was somethign I really wanted to work on and present and meet all these important people.

BEST part of this year...and my life!  My spirtuality, I have really started to intensify my practice, because i always remeber Sadhguru says its not where you are, you can always create a spiritual place with good energy anywhere and everywhere.  I am still a novie with this but so happy about my success, my wish is to be the best self i can possibly be and become totatlly endulged and englightened!  

This last year ...the hardest in a long time

I am writing this not to complain but to point out the this last year has been the hardest for me in a long time.  And now that its coming to an end I can reflect on it but here is the deal...

I last March 2013 found out about a Fellowship at the US State Department and it was the equivelant to an Political appointment except all the essays.  So I talked to a few people and got in smooth as buttter...it was so easy and I had no idea that others have had difficulties around this stuff.  Just confirms by beief that ANYTHING IS possible!  I got cleared and accepted in about 8 week instead of the usual 6 months that most other people take.

So I started in JUNE 2013 and thought I had found the answer--The Answer since I had all these visions of the White House and think that I should explore a career in Politics.  Well so I pack up my much desired life of living in SF and up and moved to Washington, DC once again for my third time!  This time with a clear purpose to start a new life one that is a guided path to my future or life calling.

Well the biggest blow was that once I got here and started workign at the State Departmetn I was very disappointed, not that it was nothing like I expected because I had no real expectaions since I knew veyr little about it.  Except all the cool stuff you hear about Diplomats and Foreign Service Officers and International travel and working for a cool Secretary of State.

Well the reality set in very very quickly! In fact my third day at work I could not motivate myself to get out of bed.  I was most shocked by the people and the way they are.  I have spend the last 2 years working on myself and being happy and loving my life, here I am in an environment where it is the exact opposite.  Not that people are slumped over hating life but they just come into work and operate like robots.  Most of the women are in there late to mid 50s and very bitter and hardened.  In fact my boss on my first day as I entered her office to walk over to a meeting with her, she said can you please wait outside my door...wow, what kind of a person treats other people like that and i'm supposedly someone she likes...yikes!  Granted the work environment is very stale but its seems so buracratic

Well after my first three months of total depression because not only was this not the place i like it is not the place i see much future at least not that I can think of....not sure exactly why i'm here except that I do wish to run for public office someday and become a Presidential appointed official (I think)


The Donuts and Ice Cream Diet

And Yes its true it works!  I have lost about 3-4 lbs on this and although its not much it is just the mental effort i went thru to get here has been such a God sent...

I have actually been eating whatever bad stuff I want which includes Donuts, Ice Cream, Cheetos and several other things I felt I should not be eating in an effort to just allow myself to just be....but the surprising things is that I actually started to lose weight.  So the other side is that I focused on things I actualy really enjoy, I love to Workout, nothing major just moving with my body!  So I love to Zumba, go on walks and also love Yoga!  I just do as much of it as possible but at the same time eat whatever i want...  

Well what has started happening is that my body is loving the movement and I do move better in my clothes and it makes me much happier!  With Spring coming I hope to move even more in my body and maybe take up Tennis also ....all i know is I love to use my body to create movement!

But guess what else i enjoy the bad foods a lot less!  So that donut I crave has become routine and not a big deal anymore!  So I took it out and substitute with a toast and peanut butter in the morning.  And as I go thru this more and more making substitutions, I substituted my sandwich at lunch with a salad because the bread was just not that great and it was making me tired...the salad tastes great and I do get a side of pasta or other fun things along with my salad.  Dinner is still unpredictable and i'm not sure what i really enjoy but will have to experiment a bit more to get it down...

So wish me luck as I set off to lose all the other excess weight but I do not follow a meal plan so cant put it out but my next thing will be to add more raw foods and take out other junk stuff...cleansing and clearing to a HEALTHIER and HAPPY Body....

Thursday, March 6, 2014

The call to Action..My Mother's situation

So as I hear and talk to my Mother about her liver condition, I get very worried!  She has been having a problem with her liver and it seems to be getting worse but as i observe her behavior i see so many ways in which this can be stopped.  Her diet and just the way of being is not conducive to healing.

Then i see in my life I too have a chronic condition and not sure if it endemetrosis or just a case of hormonal imbalance but i have had some really painful pms and heavy periods which i greatly welcome.  Knowing what to do is just half the battle, have I tried a 50% raw diet, not successfully.  I have added a lot of vegetables to my diet and it helps.  I'm sure that without it I would feel aweful so maybe its gotten better than before but the reality is that it is not yet perfect.  So the question for me is also am I doing everything I can to fix this within myself and the answer is NO.  So can i blame my Mother who is fighting a virus that makes it much harder but i dont know how to be more supportive without sounding condensending.  I just remember what my Guru said..

"Fix your own life and everyone else will follow...."

So as I look in the mirror and learn to love myself more and more each day, my job in this world is not just to love and appreciate myself but to help the whole world love and appreciate themselves by firstly setting the right example and then the whole world will follow...

God has given me so many insights on health, business, thoughts, manifestations, voice, how to share these gifts with the WORLD at large.  Oh how I wish, I could allow the world to see the World from my eyes the Big Thinker that I am...if there is one thing i will always be know for is Thinking Big.  Translating that to doing BIg is what I long for.....

Sunday, March 2, 2014

The Wish List

So i caught myself just intrigued by a movie this afternoon that really spoke to me.
To say that I'm obsessed with Creative Visualization is an understatement and am a big believer in all that it offers including Wish Lists.  So needless to say I have a wish list for my perfect mate.

This movie today mentioned that the reason people make this list for Mr. Right is to keep Mr. Right away, the list is about perfection and since perfection doesnt exist it keeps the right one away.  Well although i would never be open to this thought, I have to say it could be true.  The girl in the movie kept a list and then met the guy who fits the list but was not into him!  This has happened to me so many times...could that be it!  I have met many guys who fit the list the last one being Frank who was everything i asked for but it was so boring to go out with him!  But no other guy who doesnt meet the criteria has showed up!

Then there is the whole SB thing - could it be just that it was a way for me to keep Mr. Right away and keep myself safe and not take any risks!

Wow thats so sad, having a partner in life is very special and nice with great chemistry who meets me at every level!  When i watched this movie I could so see me marrying someone who is perfect on paper, as i see my old friends from my 20s in DC i realize i'm so glad i actually didn't marry any of them.  Its nice to be able to see a whole another perspective in life living on the West Coast.  Although my Mom said why, What is the benefit?  Well I don't know exactly but  I love my spiritual life and who i am....