Wednesday, December 31, 2014

New Year, New You!

Sadhguru: Every human being, either consciously or unconsciously, through the process of what we call life, creates a certain image, a certain personality of himself. This image that you have created within yourselves has nothing to do with reality. It has nothing to do with the self, your inner nature. It is a certain image that you have built, most of the time unconsciously. Very few human beings have built a conscious image of themselves. All others have built images according to whatever kind of patterns or external situations they fell into.
Now, why don’t we create a new self-image consciously, the way you really want to be? If you are intelligent enough, if you are aware enough, you can recast your image, a totally new image, whichever way you really want it. It is possible. But you should be willing to leave the old one. This is not pretension. Instead of acting unconsciously, you act consciously. You can create that kind of image which supports you best, that kind of image which creates maximum harmony around you, that kind of image which has least friction. You create that kind of an image which is closest to your inner nature. What kind of an image do you think is closest to your inner nature? Please see, the inner nature is very silent, not dominant but very forceful. Very subtle but very forceful.
That is what we need to do: the grosser elements within you – your anger, your limitations must be chopped off. Create a new self-image which is subtle but tremendously forceful. Think about it for the next one or two days and create a proper image for yourself; what should be the fundamental nature of your thought and emotion. Before we create something, let us really see, if what we are creating now is better than what we have. Choose a time when you would not be disturbed. Sit comfortably with your back rested and be relaxed. Now, close your eyes and visualize how other people should experience you. Create a whole new human being. Look at it with as much detail as possible. See if this new image is more human, more efficient, more loving.
Visualize this new image as powerfully as you can. Make it alive within yourself. If your thought is powerful enough, if your visualization is powerful enough, it can even break the bonds of karma. The karmic limitations can be broken by creating a powerful visualization of what you want to be. This is the opportunity to transcend all your limitations of thought, emotion and action.

Monday, December 29, 2014

Preparing for the New Year

In ONE word - 2015 for me is MAGICAL!  at all levels!

Highlights of 2014

  • Started teaching YOGA!
  • Fell in Love and had the time of my life!
  • Started working on my own consulting project and learned how to make miracles happen
  • Travel to SF every other week
  • Got in the BEST Shape of my life over the last 10 years
  • Became a professional Speaker
  • Became self Realized and Awakened to my highest self


Highlights of 2015
  • Live the Awakened Life - Magic
  • Get deeper and deeper into loving myself
  • I easily Attend and Teach at Sattva Yoga Teacher Training 2015 and have the time of my life!
  • I am in a deep loving, caring, committed Marriage with the love of my life Now, it is simply an incredible gift from God and we are both very Happy to be together!

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

Lots of learning in life

Since I am now living from an awakened presence i thought about writing on a few topics

Abundance - Abuandance is a state of doing more and giving more! it is not just about receveing lots of money.  When i was with Sadhguru he had mentioned that life is not about sitting on a pile of $1 Million dollars and then dishing it out!  its about doing something and giving it your best each day, i feel good when i serve but dont yet feel like i am dialing into my full capacity of self.  I feel good doing my work but dont get that feeling of being in the zone all the time.  i love to present and be in front of an audience but am not good at putting together documents.  I thrive when i'm presenting and in front of large audiences expecially when i'm talking about something i'm very passionate about.  i still feel very blessed that i have been able to live the say i do while i was in my stuck phase.

i see Christina is in that stuck phase of lack, anyways i was in that place where i thought a higher calling was going to show up just from meditating more and feeling good but no i still have to do the things that i am talented and blessed with

I love to host events, be in front of prestigious clients, PRESENT, lead talks, facilitate discussions and an all public speaking things
I am very good as a Strategic Advisor that can provide feedback on things
I love, love, love to give Inspirational talks around any topic!

Love, Love, Love Lessons
I am amazed how difficult it is for me to believe that the perfect life partner for me exisits and that is the learning!  IF YOU DO WHAT YOU HAVE ALWAYS DONE YOU WILL GET THE SAME RESULTS.  So i noticed a very significant pattern, i feel that its right here for me and as i relax and allow more and more its better.  the thing is that i have such a deep rooted belief system that i get stuck thinking this guy is the one!  i felt that way about Aneesh, then Sabeer and i really thought i was right about Sabeer with everything that i have kept thinking about it.  in fact i had a dream where i was like you are the one! i also had a dream where he was dating Ruby and then i also had a dream where he was dating Manisha and his parents really liked her since she is a Doctor and i felt like I couldnt have him.  Although he is a nice guy i just think he is too self absorbed for me and probably not the right fit but i love that he is famous, rich and can give me the life i feel i deserve

wow its not about deserving the guy, i do feel i deserve the good life and i feel these guys can give it to me.
But with Anand i dont know if his life is the good life for me but i know that i have very strong feelings for him.  I love that he is so spiritually connected and that he has the power to create magic and together i feel that we can create magic.  Well he seems to be able to do it on his own but i know i bring a lot to the table but guess what he doesnt seem to be responsive at least not now.  My body and heart ache because i live like i'm waiting for something.  Life is meant to be lived fully and to look back and think i spend so much time just with the mental stories that i keep telling myself.  The only true pain is that I feel like i have had such deep hatret towards myself and now that I am awakening into my true real power i think its magical...that is the real magic!  I know that i can do anything i but my mind to and that is always the case but all this denial of myself is just disappointing.

When i apply myself i do things far greater than i can imagine, like GES, and State Department and sometimes when i teach yoga i am so dialed in that its phenomenal!  I truly want to be dialed in at all times in my life and be connected.  I know i am embarking on an incredible year in 2015!  I know that things happen as they will but i want to allow myself to think as big as possible.

At the very Core i know one thing i will be famous and rich, if i had to pick one person who i would like to be like it would be Sadhguru even if I can be a quarter of the way there its worth it!  I also would love to be like Oprah, she is just herself and has provided a platform to help so many people.  I think the Radio show is a way for me to do that and I cant wait to get started.


Sunday, December 21, 2014

The urgency of Life

Well, I am ready no longer do i want to live in this mellow phase, life must happen as a flood at least that is what i have to give life.  My Best Life Ever

My Best Year 2015

This year is amazing for me!  This year and life has to come from the love i feel for myself and nothing else!  Gone are the days where i am driven by my obsession with Sabeer and Anand and all the other guys i think i can be with!  This is the time for me to be with my perfect life partner and be also with truly joyful with myself!  Life is so vast and abundant.

Teaching Abundant living for spiritual people.
Abundance is not about getting but about letting true abundance shine thru.  It is not about sitting in Tyson's Corner feeling sorry for myself but living with great love and abundance.  Living with all the best things that I love in life and being around good people having fun!  

Thursday, December 18, 2014

Life Lesson

I am actually coaching a girl who totally reminds me of me with her higher calling, i guess the best word is STUCK!  She is smart and really genuine but she has a hard time to get to the value she is providing.

I am so grateful that I have her in my life to help me get to a place of abundance!  This whole notion of working to put food on the table is very disconcerting.  I want to do things that I love.

So everything i have going on today!

  • We dont even try when we dont think we will get what we want....that was the case with me.
I do love business development both to teach and do i like interacting with wonderful people who are smart and top of their game.  Its fun for me and to get them to make certain choices.

Wednesday, December 17, 2014

My obsession with self criticism...

My Life Lesson - One of the biggest lessons i've learned in a while getting sick!

I have had such a life transformation experience the last few weeks, first i had an issue with heavy bleeding from the Utreus and a period for 6 weeks.  I've had to change my diet completely and rest and be gentle with myself to ease the pain from all this....I am happy to report a happy ending here.  My cycle is back to normal and I'm having pain free periods every 28 days.

Now I have successfully cleared all the inflammation from my body right away with some natural cures!

The thing that i cant get over is all the feeling of unworthiness that all this has created for me!  Yikes, i felt very old and even though i always look good i felt like so much came up for me.
All this time my Doctor had me beliveing that my bleeding was due to my hormonal shift and it probably was but the reality is that I was abusing my spleen.  I so want to be at my optimal health NOW!

So I am so blessed to have a body that is so willing to cooperate with me and all my learning with my body throughtout the years!  The reality is that I for some strange reason keep looking for things to blame myself for stuff!  My obsession with self criticism and it show in my making judgments of other people.  Lots of people show up in the world for me and they are wonderful in there own way becuase they are here to share and teach me things.  My Mother is the best example as she tends to stir things up in me all the time.  I guess because i'm so emotionally involved but the thing is I see people all the time and most people including myself dont change much.  I have been on a so called cleanse for the last few days and as i go thru life i have been setting back into my old habits.  The good news is that i've been doing a lot more juicing and feel full of energy but the reality is that at some level i want to be my BEST SELF!  That is what i want to be and want to share with the world. I guess if I can achieve that with myself I can achieve that for others.  Why is this important because

Time, i dont seem to act with any urgency and given my Mom's situation and given my age -- but getting sick made me realize that i am getting closer to Menopause and other things so I need to enjoy my youth.  I have said this a thousand times but the reality does not change.  I just like Tejals husband who seems to not be sure what he wants but he is waiting around...  The thing is waiting around will only bring more waiting around, i have all these wonderful tools and lots of skills and this is why i get so hurt from the inside i feel bad that i'm not using myself to the full potential.  The reality is that i am not in any urgency to look for a job or make any major decisions and now and then i start wanting things and they show up.

Life of feeling like i really love my days and feel like i'm in the Zone all day and while in the Zone get to serve others!  What does that feel like, it feels like i'm working and being productive.  I also feel like i'm living in abundance where i make money and feel abundance in helping others.

The interesting thing is that when i was in SF this last time I got everything that I wanted -

i got to teach a group full of people Mindfulness and although i felt dialed in i did not feel like it is what i want to do all the time.  I feel like i offered a solution to people for a bit but it was not complete and it was very difficult to meditate in the office.

I did get to do an inspirations talk to Women 2.0 and that felt like i was off the charts!  I Loved it!  I liked inspiring people to go after there goals and my big thing is that people get caught up in the daily life and most people dont thing they can achive there goals.  In fact the thing is that in my life i have struggled so much with wanting more and more and not finding any true fullfilment from all the different achivements, it just seems like its never enough!  I used to be a Presidents Club Winner in Sales, I have traveled to a lot of wonderful places as a result and Yada yada yada....but the reality is that the only thing that give me any level of satisfaction or the feeling of coming home is my spiritual practice!  The silver lining with all of this is that i discovered the top 5% of the people who are the most successful or top performers have a very strong spiritual practice.  So i started to explore this further and given my person upbrining I have been so passionate and unvaveringly interested in this all my life. but i just view it as a way of like like brushing my teeth or taking a shower but not as something that i have to do!  So the last few years when i had the chance to focus more deeply on my spirtual practice by traveling to India a few times after meeting my Guru and spending time in the Ashram in South India I have become very blissful to a point where i dont seem to want to do anything else but this.  Over the last year i got to deepen my yoga practice and instead of attending all these yoga retreats I decided to teach yoga and Wow another blessing!  It just fill me with Joy and I love to teach yoga.  I was blessed to have met my teacher and learn a holistic yoga practice in Rishekesh India called Sattva Yoga.  This is the perfect practice for me to teach a style of yoga that brings together all my passion including, Mantra, Asna, Meditation and Kriya.  I now practice it to help create true Transformation in creating my Best Life.  It is my core belief that all that we desire in this world can be created with a very deep Sadhna and practicing Yoga as its ment to be from its roots of the Yoga Sutra, an now YOGA as a way of life rather than a few bend and twists to workout.

The concept of living your Best Life can be summarized as living life from tapping into our own Inner Guru or highest self.  This is why i started teaching a class called Innovate from Within!  I think we as professionals all have the opportunity to life our life from our highest intelligence.  The reality is that as humans in our daily life we are only tapping into less than 10% of our intelligence/Brain power.  What does it look like if we are operating from our highest intelligence and to think that this can be done all from within without any additinal cost.

The Success Zone, why i created this show is to share success principles from people who are "successful" in living their best life, not just from a financial standpoint but experience abundance and joy while living a life of purpose and fullfilment.  In today world we get wrapped up in getting to places and achieveing monetary and social success while true fullfillment and abundance contintues to allude us.  This guest on this show allow us to experience the feeling for being in the Zone of true Abuandance and Joy while sharing their experiences.  I love more than anything else to create a forum to share such stories to inspire people to life there Best Life!  Majority of the people have not only created successful business and lead different communites but have a very strong personal practice of connecting with at the Soul to awaken their Best Self Ever!



My personal practice

Yoga, Yoga, Yoga which i perfer to teach
Eating a clean diet, no processed foods
Meditation in a true sense
Practining loving kindness towards self...ahhh i have to sie after this one because it has taken me a lot of work, so obsessed with self help!
Actulizing from Self help to Actualizing Self....

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Cleansing - Detox

These are the most commonly used terms, especially in the new year.  This time around I had different motivations, I actually want to feel better and good as new actually.  It seems I have just gotten used to the pain i feel on the right side of my body and if it were not for the bleeding i would just ignore it.  But the reality is that I dont want to do that anymore.  I want to love myself enough to take good care of myself.  I want to be able to love my body and mind and everything.

So as i began to cleanse i have been starting my day with some juicing

Today - December 16th
Turmeric with water
Roobios Tea with three biscotti
10 almonds + dates

Green juice - Lauki with collard and ginger

Smoothie for lunch
banana with other fruit - seems my body did not like this much

Chinese Tea
CBlast light coffee

Moong Dahl

So a lot of things come up throughtout the day, i am tired of thinking about things so much really.  Its hard to keep down this path and kind of annoying.  I would like everything to be done now so that i can begin living!  wow that is the problem, nothing in life is every done.

Sunday, December 14, 2014

Life's lesson....Menstruation

Being a women this is a area of my life that I kind of just want to deal with and not have to explore much...well life has its own plan.  Since i've had this new found thing where my period is very frequent and lingers on for long times.  I know all problems have to do with my impression of self.  The thing is I know that everyone will now work out with work and even with marriage, yes I am now happily married to the man of my dreams and we are both very much in love with each other and so happy to be together since we are the perfect pair.  I have always said that when i look at some people you just know that they are together....well we are that couple, we connect at each level.

I also know that my dream life is here now, i am not trying to get something but it is here now...so i should be on cloud nine.  But the reality is that i am very determined and i get really obsessed with things but at the moment i am not pushing or chasing anything....except i am chasing a dream to be with my Yoga teacher who i met 6 months ago and I felt like we are perfect for each other....i know we live across the world...but something about him touched my heart.  So i have been hoping that we can be togher and even get married.

I know that is my standard moa where i like to fall for these guys and then pine away waiting for them to come back into my life and then hide my feelings and just wait till they feel the same way....knowing that it will work out somehow.  But the reality is that when i pine away for a guy it is never really as great as i make it out to be in my mind but deep down i feel like it is....so since i'm all heart with this so unfamilar territory.  The reality is that i have not yet gone out with anyone since and when i do i feel like i need to be with this other guy...we belong together.  I