Relationship

You know i am so far along with my thoughts but I keep still thinking of hundreds of reason why this A thing is annoying to me.  It all the reasons why none of my relationships have worked so far
and nothing has worked out so far but the thing is i am really evaoled i need to evolve completely.

Allergic to Spirtuality

Allergic to Spirituality

By Sadhguru Jaggi Vasudev

It is very important that the spiritual dimension of life is brought into everybody’s lives. Why many people have developed an allergy to spirituality is because somebody always told them, ‘spirituality means leaving everything and going to the mountains.’ Even if you want to go, there is not enough space for all of you there. You had better learn how to be spiritual in your office, in your home, on the streets, wherever you are. You had better learn that because spirituality is about your interiority, not what you do outside. Spirituality is an inner science to create a conductive inner atmosphere because the quality of your life is dependent on how you are within yourself. That quality this moment depends on how joyous, how peaceful you are. This dimension you have completely neglected. Unless you do something to the inner, you will not know what it is to be peaceful, to be joyous, you will not know how to go beyond the limitations of being just a physical body and mind. 

See, your body is simply accumulations of what you have gathered from the Earth – when you leave you can’t take an atom of this body. So this body is not really yours. Your mind is not yours too. It is also just an accumulation – what you have gathered from the backgrounds in which you were brought up in life. So there is something else which needs to be looked at beyond these dimensions.

Even if I erase all your memory, still you will be here. Yes? Your family will disappear, your status will disappear, your business will disappear, everything that you own in the world will disappear. But still you are here. So beyond all the things that you identify yourself with, still there is something called as you. That you is not subject to what you accumulate from outside. But unfortunately that you has been so much covered, so much crowded with other things that you never allowed yourself to look at that. You always thought that what you are identified with is much more important than who you really are. Now if your focus shifts, then the other dimension can start opening up for you. 

The whole process of spiritual science, yoga in particular, is to somehow elevate you to an experience that is beyond the five sense organs. When you transcend the limited experience of what you know as yourself, your experience of life is naturally in a different dimension. Then you begin to experience that which is not physical, the spiritual, the Divinity of your true nature. If you are ready and willing to experience life in a deeper dimension, to be truly happy, I have methods. Then you can begin to experience the joy, the blissfulness of knowing who you really are.

For more information about Sadhguru, please visit www.ishafoundation.org

Who am I?

So I had such an ephinay today that I have to write about it>  I was feeling like I go thru the same pattern of gaining weight thinking that I can get back to losing weight and yes i can fortunately for my me my body is very accommodating.

But when i look at my pictures and the lack of guy situation i have to be very honest with myself.  I always say that I did not want it and it did not happen but when i look at my picture i have to be really honest with myself>>its not that i don't want it because at some level i do

Things that are great about me right now this person..

I see these photos and I have to say that i feel i'm a YOGI

Aparna Sain the HOT YOGI not just from the pictures but thru and thur from the inside out.

I have spend all my life wanting to be with my Guy the love of my life == the thing  is i told myself well my heart is not shining thru or that I am so mentally oriented that my heart does not shine thru but the reality is that all of me does not shine thur, i am shy inside about letting all of me go and be

==SHY me yes i was raised somewhat repressed because i am a little different that others in that I want to be very very famous for my Mind my look and also my Beauty and my heart!

So who am I?

I am me Aparna Sain, a very intelligent, attractive, WOMEN = who exodus sexuality, fun, playfulness that is really who i am when i let my guard down.  I like to have fun and laugh and enjoy myself when i am me and the reality is that Yoga allows me to do this and

I have taken my spirituality to mean that i am going from Intelligent to Spiritual the all knowing one
And actually i am not all knowing and don't even care about that...i just like to have fun, laugh, be me
i have always said i love being a women, what do i like about being women, soft, beautiful, kind, attractive, beautiful from the inside and out.  I always lead with my head because it feels safe, i sometimes lead with my heart because it just happens but when do i lead with the FUN Feminine Sexy side of me.  The one who can close her eyes and create beauty with her fingers

FUN, Femine Sexy Side == awaits the man of her dreams to unleash but the reality is what if
when i saw linda yesterday, i saw a women happy to be with her husband.  So now that i am with my husband i am sexy playful and fun and feminine this is a very important part of being a women, i have been so focused on heart opening and doing yoga and spirituality all to get somewhere become this great guru whois famous and but what about this great person who is free...to be me i love being a bowmen all the fun clothes the makeup the beautiful i love being a beautiful sexy Guru that the world lorespect sand adores but i love and adore and see her as being sexy fun playful childlike but also sexy women side i have a strong sid of that not just a child but now an women who is vey sensual the way i move that wy i am fly and soar as a sexy sensual women all women should do that

What is the SEXIEST you have every felt == When?
Exploring the Swatimtana Chakra...The Sexual Side....so much freedom in that

Allowing men to share in this Sexual being...

Where I am today? - May 14th

So here I am in San Francisco

And i'm learning that my way of being has to do with the fact that I am Bored.

I just feel that when i wake up in the morning i'm ok with everything but i'm not that excited where i feel i cant wait to start the day.  what does it feel like to start the day excited, i asked what it would be like to get up

I am so used to wanting things and living in that space but what if i am like where i can go from conference to conference

Are we all just bored?

Living life on purpose causes us to have a certain amount of excitement