missing someone

I learned today that its ok to feel a special feeling for somethonethatmakes me miss himandthedeep feeling we hare i feel very complete when i am with him and i feel ike a women and i feel like i am with the one who is my partner in life 

Ideal Scene

My dream is simple i am now the quenn of Mindful televison creating programing for the professional audienc ein a way that imspires moer inward focus of people and inspires millions of people ot turn inward towards there ture natuer of joy and abundance to life a fullffilnd life full of abundance in evyr eay money, love rebeautiful realitonships and most of all purpose.  if we dont have pruopseo in our life we waste our life and fgive intor the exeranl distraciont ss that keep us form dialing inot who we really are.  my goal in life is to inspire athe inward journey in awahy that reflects the teaching from my eastern roots and brings a simel and joy to peoplse faces and greates a inner transformationl that insires thatem to go beyond what they imagnized an dmediate and and really take the time to get to though temselfves 

why insward well if you dont know this one the very corea of who we are it seems once we setout on this path of the inward journey even this live time seems short.  ithere is som uch beauty in the way life unflidl that wwe just have to step back and allow it to unfold 

The concept that come to mind is surender at eveyr step i feel ike i have surrendered to what is in front of me surenter to wanting an accepting but ture surrend is allwong alowith that we is for my highest good to unfuld that is surrender?

as i surender to the abundance of what is aparna i want to find greater and great expressions fo fmyself that the way i can connect with others and reach others in an inspireing way and really atrtract the righ tpopel who value from my teaching who are intersetd in my sharing so are attracteed to my shirng to help me serve from this place of being me with my voice my body my hears and my sould such that it offers relief and freedonm to both of us a deep sense of freedom that can only ebe experince when two souls connect.