Just turned 47 Wow Starting the next half of my life, needless to say I have had many experiences
I have now moved to SF - 3 Times...
New jobs - Many times
Been on Dates - at least 100++
Wanted to marry - 3 Guys so far and it didnt work
Food - Many fine resturants, many options Raw, many options for everything from Sushi to Ice Cream to high end stuff all over!!!!
Love - Had a wonderful boyfriend in my 20s
30 - chased some really well what i thought were wonderful guys
40s - In 2014 felt like i fell in love for the first time where it was returned but not yet consummated, i wanted to yell is from the rooftops...nothing has yet come of it.
Being comfortable with a Guy - just recently feels comfortable
Teach Yoga - Express my true creative self, this feel wonderful
Met old friends in SF this weekend and although i want to say that they didnt do much i am very grateful that i took a chance.
Motivation for life = 0 right now. My days start out wonderful when i do Sadhna or am at the Ashram and this time when i was at TT i felt like i just want to serve
This life is not about the food, sex, things, nothing seems to bring satifsfaction but neither is it about giving advise to people all the time, it just all seems so empty, empty, i was not at all excited to come home. I am not excited to unpack. I love my new place its fabulous, i love to have people here. I still dont like to stay at home past 1pm. 1-7pm i went to temple but am still running around to avoid being alone but even when i'm with someone i feel like its a time pass i dont feel happy.
But when i stop to think about life i am very blessed and gifted. I love to be famous, but its not even about believeing because its not about going or getting somewhere. The moment is now, right now.
Constantly pushing myself....constantly reaching for something to feel wonderful. with all this practice feeling good is easy for me.
Wanting fame, wanting love, wanting marriage, wanting....this is the disease.
How does one be in the moment, by expressing creativity as you
nothing outside will provide fullfilment. constantly wanting to change yourself will not yield something. When i look at Anand i feel that he is living the life but that is not just in waking up early but expressing himself creatively...true creativity comes from self expression. The true Yogi.
Express myself full now, not when i have this or that because maybe this or that comes but nothing is the Answer.
I have now moved to SF - 3 Times...
New jobs - Many times
Been on Dates - at least 100++
Wanted to marry - 3 Guys so far and it didnt work
Food - Many fine resturants, many options Raw, many options for everything from Sushi to Ice Cream to high end stuff all over!!!!
Love - Had a wonderful boyfriend in my 20s
30 - chased some really well what i thought were wonderful guys
40s - In 2014 felt like i fell in love for the first time where it was returned but not yet consummated, i wanted to yell is from the rooftops...nothing has yet come of it.
Being comfortable with a Guy - just recently feels comfortable
Teach Yoga - Express my true creative self, this feel wonderful
Met old friends in SF this weekend and although i want to say that they didnt do much i am very grateful that i took a chance.
Motivation for life = 0 right now. My days start out wonderful when i do Sadhna or am at the Ashram and this time when i was at TT i felt like i just want to serve
This life is not about the food, sex, things, nothing seems to bring satifsfaction but neither is it about giving advise to people all the time, it just all seems so empty, empty, i was not at all excited to come home. I am not excited to unpack. I love my new place its fabulous, i love to have people here. I still dont like to stay at home past 1pm. 1-7pm i went to temple but am still running around to avoid being alone but even when i'm with someone i feel like its a time pass i dont feel happy.
But when i stop to think about life i am very blessed and gifted. I love to be famous, but its not even about believeing because its not about going or getting somewhere. The moment is now, right now.
Constantly pushing myself....constantly reaching for something to feel wonderful. with all this practice feeling good is easy for me.
Wanting fame, wanting love, wanting marriage, wanting....this is the disease.
How does one be in the moment, by expressing creativity as you
nothing outside will provide fullfilment. constantly wanting to change yourself will not yield something. When i look at Anand i feel that he is living the life but that is not just in waking up early but expressing himself creatively...true creativity comes from self expression. The true Yogi.
Express myself full now, not when i have this or that because maybe this or that comes but nothing is the Answer.
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